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boosey fiveFive years. Each year on this day my heart is consumed with nostalgia remembering vividly the hours that led up to the moment you were born. Our “Lucky 13” was four days early, but you still brought us all the luck in the world when you made your debut at 4:13am. That moment forever changed me. You forever changed me. Thank you for your enormous heart, and for sharing your love with this world. It’s a better place because you are here. I learn so much from you and I truthfully could not be more proud of who you are and who you will become. Thank you for making me want to be a better person. Don’t ever lose your light, your determination, or your willingness to stand up for others and what is right. Follow your heart but never forget, that you will never be too big for me to hold you. I love you endlessly, Boosey. Happy Fifth Birthday.

Love, Mom

.:Siri – us:.

Dear Boosey,

Ugh. So I feel like a failure. I have SUCKED (I’m pretty sure by the time you are able to read this, I still won’t want you using this word) at keeping this thing updated. Please know that its not for lack of you entertaining us and being an undeniably awesome kid. I wanted to share a quick reminder of your hilariousness.

Its important to note that you are now a big sister!! Your baby brother, Cohen joined our family on April 26th of this year. You LOVE him, you ADORE him, you talk to him in a tone of voice that is about 78 octaves above the normal human voice. But you are his big sister, and you are AMAZING at it. 🙂

While your love for your brother has never lacked since the moment you saw him, I would be lying if I said that it hasn’t been and adjustment for you going from the only child to a big sister. You have pushed boundaries and buttons and everything else I would expect from a child who is just figuring out who she is in a sudden family of four. So we had a bit of a rough day on Friday, July 17th. I had to ask you if you needed to go to time out, which you of course didn’t think you needed to. Instead, you told me “I have to go potty instead” as you walked into the bathroom with my phone. So on my phone (which I’m sure will be VASTLY different technology when you are reading this) has Siri – an intelligent personal assistant that is available at the touch of a button. After you got into the bathroom and partially closed the door I heard the two tone noise which indicates that Siri is listening for whatever inquiry the user may have. Less than two seconds later I heard you ask SIRI “Why is my mom so mean?” I immediately poked my head in the door and said, “What are you asking?” to which you immediately replied “Nothing…”. Well SIRI did as you asked, and promptly replied, “Okay, I found three web results for “Why is my mom so mean”. You gazed up at me in terror and promptly apologized. “Oh, sorry” you said, knowing you were busted.

Truth is, I don’t know any kid that hasn’t thought at one time or another that they had the absolute worst parent(s) in the world, so instead of taking offense, I’m just thanking you for the laugh.

Love you Buzz!!


.:The Bakery:.

Hey Buzz,

So I wanted to share with you a funny story that Grandma Freed called and told me earlier this week while you were at her house. I should preface by telling you that one thing you love to do at the park is feed the ducks, and typically the diet that you provide them consists of large chunks of nearly-stale bread. On to the funny…..

On Monday, December 2nd you were at Grandma’s house and as Grandma was getting ready for the day, not unusually you were playing in her shower. It was your “bakery”. You take the orders, bake them, and then serve them with a smile. You asked Grandma what she wanted from the bakery and she said, “Ummm, how about a cake?”

“No…” you replied. “Cake is for birthdays.”

“How about bread?” She asked.

“No, bread is for ducks.”

So we aren’t exactly sure what it is that your bakery actually bakes, but whatever it is, I’m sure the logic behind your product is flawless.

We think we also might know why it is that you don’t particularly like bread. Because its for ducks, obviously.

Thanks for always making us smile.

Love you kiddo!

.:Some Advice:.

Hey Kiddo,

Just your mom here. We’re days away from your 3rd birthday (I seriously, cannot believe it!) and I have a TON of updates to get on this site. I will, I PROMISE!! But today I read some great advice online, and I wanted to share. As you grow up, I guess the biggest thing that I would impart to you at this point is to remember that nothing ever stays the same. If it hurts, it will get better. Try to find a balance between what your heart and your gut are telling you when you make decisions. If it turns out to be the wrong decision, go the other way as soon as you realize it. Whatever you do, Live. Your. Life. And always, always remember that I love you. No matter what. Enjoy!

1.  Boys will break your heart. Let them. Learn from it.

2.  It’s so easy to become jaded, but don’t let it happen to you. Fight it.

3.  Stand firm in your beliefs.

4.  Love yourself. Sometimes you’re all you have.

5.  Cherish the little things.

6.  Order pizza at 3am on a Tuesday. It won’t kill you.

7.  It’s okay to laugh at yourself. Embrace the imperfections.

8.  You are the rule, not the exception. Life will be so much easier if you accept  this now.

9.  Make mistakes. If you learn from them, they won’t be in vain.

10.  He’s lying, there is no fish tank. Go anyway.

11.  Classes can be retaken. Life cannot.

12.  Sometimes it’s better to ask for forgiveness than for permission.

13.  The world is full of cynics – don’t become one.

14.  Stop calling him. Stop texting him. If he wanted you, he’d be there.

15.  Apologize when you’re wrong. Just suck up your pride and do it.

16.  Bellybutton piercings are a bad idea. As are tattoos.

17.  No one is perfect. Stop being so hard on yourself.

18.  Hug your friends. Cherish them. Hold them tight.

19.  Laugh until you cry. Cry until you laugh.

20.  Step outside your comfort zone.

21.  Order a glass of water with every drink. It’s not lame. It’s smart.

22.  A bad hair day really won’t kill you.

23.  Dancing on tables should be reserved for special occasions, like birthdays and  Thursday nights.

24.  Don’t dumb yourself down for a boy.

25.  Ignorance is not bliss. Study. Work hard.

26.  Life is hard. Accept this and move on.

27.  Don’t sweat the small stuff, but do sweat at the gym. Your health is your  everything.

28.  Tell your parents you love them every chance you get.

29.  Stop caring so much about what everyone else thinks.

30.  Forgive. Life is too short to be angry.

31.  You are destined to be more than just someone’s wife. Act like it.

32.  People will hurt you. Don’t stoop to their level.

33.  Read a newspaper.

34.  Sometimes the only person that you can rely on is yourself.

35.  It’s okay if your thighs touch and your tummy isn’t perfectly toned. You’re  still beautiful.

36.  Don’t let your happiness depend on another person.

37.  Push yourself. You’d be amazed at what you’re capable of.

38.  Smile through the tears.

39.  Don’t slut shame. Girls have it hard enough – don’t turn on one another.

40.  It’s okay to ask for help.

41.  He’ll never change. Let him go.

42.  Trust your instincts.

43.  Worrying causes wrinkles and Botox is expensive. Calm down.

44.  Take pictures. Lots and lots of pictures.

45.  Love with everything you have.

46.  Put down your phone and look around. Life is happening.

47.  Stand up for yourself.

48.  Confidence is everything.

49.  Wash your makeup off at night. Seriously. Do it.

50.  There are bad people in this world. Don’t be one of them.

51.  Be honest with yourself.

52.  Be honest with others.

53.  You never need that last shot of vodka, but have it anyway.

54.  There is a man out there who will not make you cry. Wait for him.

55.  Don’t take yourself too seriously.

56.  Your success will not be handed to you. Work for it.

57.  Don’t waste money on expensive mascaras. Great Lash by Maybelline will always be  the best.

58.  Give back.

59.  He does not define your self-worth. Stop letting him.

60.  Life is uncertain. Tomorrow is not guaranteed; don’t take it for granted.

61.  Your faith in everything you know will be tested. Push forward.

62.  Be carefree, not careless.

63.  It’s okay to cry.

64.  You will fall, both literally and figuratively. Get back up.

65.  Tequila is a bad idea, as is getting back together with an ex.

66.  Fad diets never work.

67.  Be gracious in all that you do.


.: I Fink :.

Hiya Boo!

As parents, it is truly a marvel to watch the brains of you little people working. Sometimes its as though we can actually see the parts of your thoughts moving. Progressing from one to the next, putting together this infinite puzzle we call life. As your daddy and I have been able to watch you do this, we are amazed at how your little processor works. You hear a word one time, and then are using it (and correctly!) in a sentence. You watch daddy fix things and the next thing we know you’re rigging your own tools to fix something on your own. To watch your mind work is truly, well, mind boggling.

So you’re learning to think, or as you pronounce it, “fink” on your own. You do this constantly throughout the day. From deciding what you want to eat or drink, to which stuffed animal friends you want to take to Grandma’s or Staci’s, to which direction you want to sit on the potty. Yes, when left to your own devices, Daddy or I typically will respond to your calls from the bathroom for “Help!” or even just to “Yook at me!” to find you straddling the toilet, turned around backwards but getting the job done.

One such thought this weekend was especially….special. You came into our room, early Saturday morning. I helped you up into our bed and you asked for a “bottle”, which in our house is actually just a sippy cup with milk. Daddy was getting up to answer natures call at that time, so he said he would get your sippy. On his way out of our bedroom, in a barely awake voice you said, “Daddy…….” He didn’t hear you. So you said again, “Hey Daddy!” to which he responded, “Yes, Bug?”. You paused and then said, “I fink Mommy loves you.” Well, you’re absolutely right and Daddy and I both loved your observance.

As you grow older, and continue to learn new things, see new things, and experience new things, I would encourage you to always think for yourself. Don’t let anyone tell you that you can’t do whatever it is you want to do. Stay close to your family who loves you and would do anything for you and always remember that being you is what makes you so special.

I fink! I fink! I fink you’re pretty amazing!

Love you Boosey!



.:Let’s Potty!!:. – Part II

Hey Buggy, just adding to the memories here…..

Two more funny things to add to your potty stories:

March 21, 2013 – You went Number Two on the potty at home tonight! You were so excited when you were done, you looked at the Two and then ran and told Daddy, “Daddy, I pooped a pine cone!”

March 25, 2013 – You went Number Two on the potty at Staci’s again today – I know this because at 2:55pm, I got a text message from Staci that said “Sawyer: I did a banana poops!”

You had a really great weekend in regards to the potty. One “wet” accident and one Number Two accident. You’re doing so well, great job Sawyer!!

Your biggest Number Two fan,


.:Let’s Potty!!:.

Dear Sawyer,

Well, we’re in the thick of it. Potty training, that is. So far I’d say that this experience has not been as bad as I thought it was going to be. Or rather, as bad as I’ve heard other people describe it.

You have been REALLY good about going….uh, number one on the potty but there’s still some work to be done with number two. You still like to find a quiet place and do your business on your own and I can’t blame you, we’ve just got to get your quiet place to be in the bathroom…….on the potty.

The point of this update is to share with you a funny little tidbit from yesterday. You were at Staci’s as you usually are on Tuesdays and Wednesdays during the day. You are still wearing diapers at night, and so before we left the house yesterday morning, i changed you into a dry diaper not knowing if it was going to be a “good day” or a “bad day” in terms of potty usage. I received a text message from Staci at 10:13 a.m. that had me laughing hysterically and so VERY proud of you at the same time. The text said:

Sawyer just told me she had to poop. Sure enough, she did! After she was done she told her friends to come look at it. Lol!” (As you get older and get to know more about your Auntie Laura, you will definitely SEE more humor in this!)

Today, at Grandma Freed’s, you were in another room when Number Two was coming, and you yelled to Grandma to “Come here, Grandma, faster! faster!” Grandma didn’t make it in time and you told her, “Oh no, dere’s poops in my jammies. I sorry!” Its all part of the process and with this like everything in life, we’ll have successes and we’ll have oopsies. Whats important is that we’re getting there, and with every oopsie we learn a little more.

I’m so proud of your potty accomplishments! I know that looking back one day, these little things will seem unimportant and yes, I realize that they are just a part of your growing up – like every kid does and that at some point every kid has similar potty training experiences. But they are monumental as I watch you accomplish them and I am so honored that I get to share these milestones with you.

I will ALWAYS be your #1 fan, even when that means being excited about your #2’s.

I love you, kiddo. Keep up the good work!


.:Pet Shop Buys:.

Dear Sawyer,

About every three weeks, it becomes necessary to make a trek to the pet sotre for food for Tess and Ella. Usually, i would go right after work just before I picked you up from Grandma’s or Staci’s. Well, the last two times, I’ve picked you up first so that we can go together. You LOVE it there! We go in for dog food, and ineveitably walk out 45 minutes later with dog food, AND a new Beanie Baby toy that the pet store staff brilliantly places next to the register. 😉

We see birds, rabbits, guinea pigs, snakes, giant spiders, fish, lizards and turtles. You are fascinated by all of them and frequently refer to the furry ones as “soooo caaaa-ute!” One of my favorite moments from our first trip was when we were walking around looking at the rabbits and guinea pigs. They are in little huts so we aren’t able to touch them but right across from them in a cage that we CAN poke our fingers through, is a furry little animal – the likes of which your were immensley curious about. It doesn’t look quite like a rabbit, and so as soon as we saw it you immediately asked me what it was. I read the sign next to the cage and told you “Its a Chinchilla!” You studied it for a moment, and then looked back at me and said, “No Mama, its a possum!” I quite literally almost fell over from the crouched position I was in next to you and the cage. I have NO idea where you’ve seen a possum, or even heard the word but you were certain thats what it was, and I was once again SOOOO impressed with you. I know I say it often, and you’ll get sick of reading it one day when you are reading this – but your little brain so so amazing. We can literally watch you figure things out, study people and situations and the sum of all of that that exits your mouth in words is one of the most astounding things I’ve ever seen.

So since our first trip to the pet store, your beanie baby collect has grown by three friends, that you often refer to as “my family”. They all go with you to Grandma’s or Staci’s when you go, and we’re never without at least one of them in your “pack pack”. So far we’ve gotten an elephant, which you named “Ollie”, and a kitty that you’ve named….well, Kitty. The third one, a penguin was one that Grandma Freed bought for you when we went to Hallmark one day. When we got in the car to head home, we asked you what your penguin’s name was. You told us “he waddles”. Unbeknownst to us until a few moments later when Grandma looked at the tag on the Penguin, but his name actully is “Waddles”!! Whether a lucky guess, or you’re reading at age 2 – either way, VERY impressive Miss Sawyer! 🙂

As you’ve had your penguin for a few weeks now, several times you’ve put your penguin inside your shirt right next to your tummy. You told Staci “I have a baby penguin in my tummy” and then got on your pretend skateboard and said “I gotta go to work”.

You’re a mile a minute and I wouldn’t change a second of it. Thank you for the brilliance you bring to our lives.

I love you most,



.:Knockin’ our Socks Off:.

Dear Sawyer,

One of the MANY things we are constantly amazed at about you is how quickly your vocabulary is expanding. About six months ago Daddy and I sat down to try to determine how many vocabulary words that you’ve not only used, but actually understand the meaning of. We kept adding to the list over several days, and by your 2 year checkup we estimated that you actively use and understand 400+ words!! You surprise us daily with new things you say and we literally look at each other in disbelief when you speak sometimes. A few of my favorites over the last little while are:

Monday, January 28th, 2013 – You spent today with Grandma Freed, as you typically do every Monday. While emptying a tube of Simply Go-Gurt for you to snack on, you told Grandma of a picture on the back of the tube “Look Grandma, its a tuba!”  Astounded, Grandma replied, “Wow, Sawyer, thats a tuba?” You studied it for a moment and then said back to her, “No, Grandma, its a saxophone.” Grandma called me at work immediately and we were both flabberghasted that you knew not only what a tuba is, but also a saxophone. You also know the difference between a guitar (you call it a “key-tar”) and a violin which if you’re looking at or holding the physical objects is easy to discern for adults, but you can tell the difference in pictures (flash cards with alphabet/objects). I think thats pretty amazing.

Saturday, February 2, 2013 – Daddy and I spent most of the day helping Uncle James and Aunt Bre move into a new place, so Grandma Freed was kind enough to let you come hang out with her. While there, at one point you were climbing up onto a bench at the kitchen table to have a snack. Your curious little eyes caught a bit of food that was left on the bench (probably by you at one point during the day). When you saw the food, you told Grandma, “Ew, Grandma, its a booger!!”. Grandma laughed (knowing it wasn’t a booger) and asked you where it came from. Your response to her was, “Papa pick his nose, booger on the table!” Hours later, when Papa returned home, you said to him, “No, no no, Papa!! No pick your nose!!” Grandma was amazed that you remembered the booger AND remembered to scold Papa for it when he got home. When I came to pick you up Grandma and I got a good laugh out of the story, and when we asked you what was on the seat you told us again it was a booger from Papa.

Even at the tender age of two, Miss Sawyer , you are hilarious! You manage to keep us on our toes and laughing almost constantly. Its impossible for you to know how much joy you bring to so many people’s lives. We are ALL so very lucky to be a part of yours.

I love you, Buggy!! <3

Love, Mama

.:One year + Update (sorry!):.

Dear Sawyer,

I’ve told your daddy and so many others that I really had not concept of how quickly time actually flys by, until you came into our lives. Every day is something new, and its so bittersweet knowing that each day that passes is one day closer to the day you’re grown. We cherish EVERY MOMENT, and love watching you become such a strong, independent little person but that means letting go too, which is hard to do as a parent.

September 2011: So let’s see, our last post over a year ago was about your trip to Primary Children’s Hospital with a respiratory infection. For more on this, read the post called .:Just Breathe:. below.

October 2011: We’ll skip through most of October and get to the end. This was your FIRST HALLOWEEN!! Since we have lovingly referred to you as Bug, Buggy, Bugga Boose, Boosey, Boosey Boo…..Buzz….any variation you can think of and we’ve probably called you that as a term of absolute endearment. Anyway, given all of that, I thought it was only appropriate that you be a bug for Halloween. So that you were, a lady bug. You came trick-or-treating at my office, and everyone was amazed that you were walking when you were so little.


November 2011: I had to take many deep breaths as we went into November. I could not believe that this was the month that you would turn 1 year old!! Your first birthday party was quite a to-do! You have so many people that love you and our house was packed with friends and family that came to celebrate your special day!! Since you have been our little “Buggy” since you came home from the hospital, we decided to go with a “Bug” theme, but a girly one of course. 🙂 You were spoiled rotten that day, but you deserved every moment of it!! One of my favorite things that you were given was a scrapbook that Aunt Channie made you, of your first year of life. I was emotional about you turning 1 year old anyway, its a beautiful book that we will treasure forever!! I’m so grateful to all of our family and friends for making your first birthday so very special!